Now we will count to twelve and we will all keep still.
This one time upon the earth, let's not speak any language, let's stop for one second, and not move our arms so much.
It would be a delicious moment, without hurry, without locomotives, all of us would be together in a sudden uneasiness.
The fishermen in the cold sea would do no harm to the whales and the peasant gathering salt would look at his torn hands.
Those who prepare green wars, wars of gas, wars of fire, victories without survivors, would put on clean clothing and would walk alongside their brothers in the shade, without doing a thing.
What I want shouldn't be confused with final inactivity: life alone is what matters, I want nothing to do with death.
If we weren't unanimous about keeping our lives so much in motion,
if we could do nothing for once, perhaps a great silence would interrupt this sadness, this never understanding ourselves and threatening ourselves with death, perhaps the earth is teaching us when everything seems to be dead and then everything is alive.
Now I will count to twelve and you keep quiet and I'll go.
-from Full Woman, Fleshly Apple, Hot Moon Translated by Stephen Mitchell
Decided to try to do a reading of a poem this time, just for fun, just as something never tried before. T'was a lovely candle-lit night with one of greatest mystical poets of all time. :)
What a wonderful reading and a short version of this full poem here-
Let us go then, you and I, When the evening is spread out against the sky Like a patient etherised upon a table; Let us go, through certain half-deserted streets, The muttering retreats Of restless nights in one-night cheap hotels And sawdust restaurants with oyster-shells: Streets that follow like a tedious argument Of insidious intent To lead you to an overwhelming question ... Oh, do not ask, "What is it?" Let us go and make our visit.
In the room the women come and go Talking of Michelangelo.
The yellow fog that rubs its back upon the windowpanes, The yellow smoke that rubs its muzzle on the windowpanes Licked its tongue into the corners of the evening, Lingered upon the pools that stand in drains, Let fall upon its back the soot that falls from chimneys, Slipped by the terrace, made a sudden leap, And seeing that it was a soft October night, Curled once about the house, and fell asleep.
And indeed there will be time For the yellow smoke that slides along the street Rubbing its back upon the window-panes; There will be time, there will be time To prepare a face to meet the faces that you meet; There will be time to murder and create, And time for all the works and days of hands That lift and drop a question on your plate; Time for you and time for me, And time yet for a hundred indecisions, And for a hundred visions and revisions, Before the taking of a toast and tea.
In the room the women come and go Talking of Michelangelo.
And indeed there will be time To wonder, "Do I dare?" and, "Do I dare?" Time to turn back and descend the stair, With a bald spot in the middle of my hair-- (They will say: "How his hair is growing thin!") My morning coat, my collar mounting firmly to the chin, My necktie rich and modest, but asserted by a simple pin-- (They will say: "But how his arms and legs are thin!") Do I dare Disturb the universe? In a minute there is time For decisions and revisions which a minute will reverse.
For I have known them all already, known them all-- Have known the evenings, mornings, afternoons, I have measured out my life with coffee spoons; I know the voices dying with a dying fall Beneath the music from a farther room. So how should I presume?
And I have known the eyes already, known them all-- The eyes that fix you in a formulated phrase, And when I am formulated, sprawling on a pin, When I am pinned and wriggling on the wall, Then how should I begin To spit out all the butt-ends of my days and ways? And how should I presume?
And I have known the arms already, known them all-- Arms that are braceleted and white and bare (But in the lamplight, downed with light brown hair!) Is it perfume from a dress That makes me so digress? Arms that lie along a table, or wrap about a shawl. And should I then presume? And how should I begin?
. . . . .
Shall I say, I have gone at dusk through narrow streets And watched the smoke that rises from the pipes Of lonely men in shirt-sleeves, leaning out of windows? . . .
I should have been a pair of ragged claws Scuttling across the floors of silent seas.
. . . . .
And the afternoon, the evening, sleeps so peacefully! Smoothed by long fingers, Asleep . . . tired . . . or it malingers, Stretched on the floor, here beside you and me. Should I, after tea and cakes and ices, Have the strength to force the moment to its crisis? But though I have wept and fasted, wept and prayed, Though I have seen my head (grown slightly bald) brought in upon a platter, I am no prophet--and here's no great matter; I have seen the moment of my greatness flicker, And I have seen the eternal Footman hold my coat, and snicker, And in short, I was afraid.
And would it have been worth it, after all, After the cups, the marmalade, the tea, Among the porcelain, among some talk of you and me, Would it have been worth while, To have bitten off the matter with a smile, To have squeezed the universe into a ball To roll it towards some overwhelming question, To say: "I am Lazarus, come from the dead, Come back to tell you all, I shall tell you all"-- If one, settling a pillow by her head, Should say: "That is not what I meant at all. That is not it, at all."
And would it have been worth it, after all, Would it have been worth while, After the sunsets and the dooryards and the sprinkled streets, After the novels, after the teacups, after the skirts that trail along the floor-- And this, and so much more?-- It is impossible to say just what I mean! But as if a magic lantern threw the nerves in patterns on a screen: Would it have been worth while If one, settling a pillow or throwing off a shawl, And turning toward the window, should say: "That is not it at all, That is not what I meant, at all."
. . . . .
No!I am not Prince Hamlet, nor was meant to be; Am an attendant lord, one that will do To swell a progress, start a scene or two, Advise the prince; no doubt, an easy tool, Deferential, glad to be of use, Politic, cautious, and meticulous; Full of high sentence, but a bit obtuse; At times, indeed, almost ridiculous-- Almost, at times, the Fool.
I grow old . . . I grow old . . . I shall wear the bottoms of my trousers rolled.
Shall I part my hair behind?Do I dare to eat a peach? I shall wear white flannel trousers, and walk upon the beach. I have heard the mermaids singing, each to each.
I do not think that they will sing to me.
I have seen them riding seaward on the waves Combing the white hair of the waves blown back When the wind blows the water white and black.
We have lingered in the chambers of the sea By sea-girls wreathed with seaweed red and brown Till human voices wake us, and we drown.
Some kind of relaxed and beautiful thing kept flickering in with the tide and looking around. Black as a fisherman's boot, with a white belly.
If you asked for a picture I would have to draw a smile under the perfectly round eyes and above the chin, which was rough as a thousand sharpened nails.
And you know what a smile means, don't you?
*
I wanted the past to go away, I wanted to leave it, like another country; I wanted my life to close, and open like a hinge, like a wing, like the part of the song where it falls down over the rocks: an explosion, a discovery; I wanted to hurry into the work of my life; I wanted to know,
whoever I was, I was
alive for a little while.
*
It was evening, and no longer summer. Three small fish, I don't know what they were, huddled in the highest ripples as it came swimming in again, effortless, the whole body one gesture, one black sleeve that could fit easily around the bodies of three small fish.
*
Also I wanted to be able to love. And we all know how that one goes, don't we?
Slowly
*
the dogfish tore open the soft basins of water.
*
You don't want to hear the story of my life, and anyway I don't want to tell it, I want to listen
to the enormous waterfalls of the sun.
And anyway it's the same old story - - - a few people just trying, one way or another, to survive.
Mostly, I want to be kind. And nobody, of course, is kind, or mean, for a simple reason.
And nobody gets out of it, having to swim through the fires to stay in this world.
*
And look! look! look! I think those little fish better wake up and dash themselves away from the hopeless future that is bulging toward them.
*
And probably, if they don't waste time looking for an easier world,
The mind is like a reflection in a mirror: Though it is insubstantial, it is not nonexistent. What is, we have no control over; And what isn't, is ephemeral Aren't the esteemed sages Just regular people who've resolved the matter?
There are changes upon changes. Once the five components are clearly seen, The diverse things in the world are joined into one. How can there be two formless dharma bodies? Once compulsive desires are eliminated and insight comes, There are no thoughts about where the promised land may lie.
The will to survive must be killed off. Once it is killed off, there will be peace of mind. When the mind integrates this, An iron ship has been made to float.
-P'ang Yun
Mirror Pond On Mount Taibo In Shanxi
The water and my mind have both settled down Into perfect stillness. Sun and moon shine bright in it. At night I see in the surface The enormous face of my old familiar moon. I don't think you've ever met the source of this reflection. All shrillness fades into the sound of silence. But now and then a puff of mist floats across the mirror. It confuses me a little But not enough to make me forget to forget my cares.
- Hsu Yun
The mind-mirror is clear, so there are no obstacles. Its brilliance illuminates the universe To the depths and in every grain of sand. Multitudinous things of the cosmos Are all reflected in the mind, And this full clarity is beyond inner and outer.
- Yoka Genkaku
Actually there isn't a thing much less any dust to wipe away who can master this doesn't need to sit there stiff
- Feng-kan
Looking For Each Other
I have been looking for you, World Honored One, since I was a little child. With my first breath, I heard your call, and began to look for you, Blessed One. I've walked so many perilous paths, confronted so many dangers, endured despair, fear, hopes, and memories. I've trekked to the farthest regions, immense and wild, sailed the vast oceans, traversed the highest summits, lost among the clouds. I've lain dead, utterly alone, on the sands of ancient deserts. I've held in my heart so many tears of stone.
Blessed One, I've dreamed of drinking dewdrops that sparkle with the light of far-off galaxies. I've left footprints on celestial mountains and screamed from the depths of Avici Hell, exhausted, crazed with despair because I was so hungry, so thirsty. For millions of lifetimes, I've longed to see you, but didn't know where to look. Yet, I've always felt your presence with a mysterious certainty.
I know that for thousands of lifetimes, you and I have been one, and the distance between us is only a flash of thought. Just yesterday while walking alone, I saw the old path strewn with Autumn leaves, and the brilliant moon, hanging over the gate, suddenly appeared like the image of an old friend. And all the stars confirmed that you were there! All night, the rain of compassion continued to fall, while lightning flashed through my window and a great storm arose, as if Earth and Sky were in battle. Finally in me the rain stopped, the clouds parted. The moon returned, shining peacefully, calming Earth and Sky. Looking into the mirror of the moon, suddenly I saw myself, and I saw you smiling, Blessed One. How strange!
The moon of freedom has returned to me, everything I thought I had lost. From that moment on, and in each moment that followed, I saw that nothing had gone. There is nothing that should be restored. Every flower, every stone, and every leaf recognize me. Wherever I turn, I see you smiling the smile of no-birth and no-death. The smile I received while looking at the mirror of the moon. I see you sitting there, solid as Mount Meru, calm as my own breath, sitting as though no raging fire storm ever occurred, sitting in complete peace and freedom. At last I have found you, Blessed One, and I have found myself. There I sit.
The deep blue sky, the snow-capped mountains painted against the horizon, and the shining red sun sing with joy. You, Blessed One, are my first love. The love that is always present, always pure, and freshly new. And I shall never need a love that will be called “last.” You are the source of well-being flowing through numberless troubled lives, the water from your spiritual stream always pure, as it was in the beginning. You are the source of peace, solidity, and inner freedom. You are the Buddha, the Tathagata. With my one-pointed mind I vow to nourish your solidity and freedom in myself so I can offer solidity and freedom to countless others, now and forever.
Your face is neither infinite nor ephemeral. You can never see your own face, only a reflection, not the face itself.
So you sigh in front of mirrors and cloud the surface.
It's better to keep your breath cold. Hold it, like a diver does in the ocean. One slight movement, the mirror-image goes.
Don't be dead or asleep or awake. Don't be anything.
What you most want, what you travel around wishing to find, lose yourself as lovers lose themselves, and you'll be that.
- Attar
We are the mirror as well as the face in it. We are tasting the taste this minute of eternity. We are pain and what cures pain, both. We are the sweet, cold water and the jar that pours.
- Rumi
The Mirror
Your eye has not strength enough to gaze at the burning sun, but you can see its burning light by watching its reflection mirrored in the water.
So the reflection of Absolute Being can be viewed in the mirror of Not-Being, for nonexistence, being opposite Reality, instantly catches its reflection.
Know the world from end to end is a mirror; in each atom a hundred suns are concealed. If you pierce the heart of a single drop of water, from it will flow a hundred clear oceans; if you look intently at each speck of dust, in it you will see a thousand beings. A gnat in its limbs is like an elephant; in name a drop of water resembles the Nile. In the heart of a barleycorn is stored a hundred harvests. Within a millet-seed a world exists. In an insects wing is an ocean of life. A heaven is concealed in the pupil of an eye. The core at the center of the heart is small, yet the Lord of both worlds will enter there.
- Mahmud Shabistari
I Was Nothing
When my mind was cleansed of impurities, like a mirror of its dust and dirt, I recognized the Self in me: When I saw Him dwelling in me, I realized that He was the Everything and I was nothing.
Do you remember still the falling stars that like swift horses through the heavens raced and suddenly leaped across the hurdles of our wishes--do you recall? And we did make so many! For there were countless numbers of stars: each time we looked above we were astounded by the swiftness of their daring play, while in our hearts we felt safe and secure watching these brilliant bodies disintegrate, knowing somehow we had survived their fall.
~Rainer Maria Rilke, translated by Albert Ernest Flemming
Caught quite a few falling stars in the past few nights, so this is just a little tribute to the wonderful month of August, the month of the meteor showers in the Perseus constellation, as well as just a great warm time to escape to the countryside like I did, and lie under the open eternity of the sky, travelling, travelling, travelling.... till you are completely in the unknown, in the space without borders, till there is no time, no you... nothing but the vast blinking eyes of the Universe looking back at you, looking from within you to the face of the Divine.
On the beach at night alone, As the old mother sways her to and fro singing her husky song, As I watch the bright stars shining, I think a thought of the clef of the universes and of the future.
A vast similitude interlocks all, All spheres, grown, ungrown, small, large, suns, moons, planets, All distances of place however wide, All distances of time, all inanimate forms, All souls, all living bodies though they be ever so different, or in different worlds, All gaseous, watery, vegetable, mineral processes, the fishes, the brutes, All nations, colors, barbarisms, civilizations, languages, All identities that have existed or may exist on this globe, or any globe, All lives and deaths, all of the past, present, future, This vast similitude spans them, and always has spann'd, And shall forever span them and compactly hold and enclose them.
Seizing my life in your hands, you thrashed me clean On savage rocks of eternal mind. How its colors bled, until they grew white! You smile and sit back: I dry in your sun.
The Sea boils with passion for you, The clouds pour pearls at your feet A lightning from your love has pierced the earth This smoke curling to heaven is its child.
We were green: we ripened and grew golden. The Sea terrified us: we learned how to drown. Squat and earthbound, we unfolded huge wings. We started sober: are love's startled drunkards.
You hide me in your cloak of nothingness Reflect my ghost in your glass of being I am nothing, yet appear: transparent dream Where your eternity briefly trembles.
This love sacrifices all souls, however wise, however "awakened" Cuts off their heads without a sword, hangs them without a scaffold. We are the guests of the one who devours his guests The friends of the one who slaughters his friends.... Although by his gaze he brings death to so many lovers Let yourself be killed by him: is he not the water of life? Never, ever, grow bitter: he is the friend and kills gently. Keep your heart noble, for this most noble love Kills only kings near God and men free from passion. We are like the night, earth's shadow. He is the Sun: He splits open the night with a sword soaked in dawn....
The man to whom is unveiled the mystery of Love Exists no longer, but vanishes into love. Place before the Sun a burning candle And watch its brilliance disappear before that blaze, The candle exists no longer, it is transformed into Light, There are no more signs of it, it itself becomes sign....
You are my soul, my universe: what do I have to do with the soul and the universe? For me you are ever-flowing treasure: what do I have to do with profit and loss? One minute, I am the friend of the wine, another the friend of him who burns me. I have come to this age of ruins, so what do I have to do with time's melodrama? I am terrified by the whole world, I am sprung free of the whole world, I am neither "hidden" no "apparent." What do I have to do with existence or space? I am drunk on union with you, I need and want and care about no one else. Since I am your prey, what do I care about fate's bow and its arrows? I live at the bottom of the stream, why would I go looking for water? What could or would I say about this stream that flows and flows? I have given up existence, why go on staggering under the burden of this mountain? Since the wolf is my shepherd, why put up with the pretensions of the shepherd? What abandon! What drunkenness! You hold the cup in you hand Blessed is the place you are, and glorious to the eye of the heart. Each atom, by your grace, is a universe, each drop of water a soul. No one who has ever had a sign from you need worry again about "name" or "sign." To find the place of splendor, at the bottom of the Sea of truths You have to dive, dive head first: what do I have to do with feet that scurry? With the sword of the One God you have hacked a Path for us: You have stolen all my clothes: What will I give to the toll-man? From your beauty ablaze like the sun, from the curls of your hair, My heart has become ecstatic: O my soul, hand me this brimming cup, Do not weigh pain and misery, contemplate love, contemplate friendship: Do not mull over tyranny and neglect: think of all those who have their eyes fixed on you. Surname all grief 'grace': transmute pain and anguish into joy And ask from joy all happiness, all security, all peace. Demand that security, that peace, demand them, Choose the company of those withdrawn in love Listen to those who open a path to you: listen, and don't say a word.
Glorious is the moment we sit in the palace, you and I Two forms, two faces, but a single soul, you and I The flowers will blaze and bird cries shower us with immortality The moment we enter the garden, you and I All the stars of heaven will run out to gaze at us As we burn as the full moon itself, you and I The fire winged birds of heaven will rage with envy In that place we laugh ecstatically, you and I What a miracle, you and I, entwined in the same nest While I am here in Konya, and you are in Khorassan What a miracle, you and I, one love, one lover, one Fire In this world and the next, in an ecstasy without end.
I took a small path leading up a hill valley, finding there a temple, its gate covered with moss, and in front of the door but tracks of birds; in the room of the old monk no one was living, and I staring through the window saw but a hair duster hanging on the wall, itself covered with dust; emptily I sighed thinking to go, but then turning back several times, seeing how the mist on the hills was flying, and then a light rain fell as if it were flowers falling from the sky, making a music of its own; away in the distance came the cry of a monkey, and for me the cares of the world slipped away, and I was filled with the beauty around me.
Amongst the flowers I am alone with my pot of wine drinking by myself; then lifting my cup I asked the moon to drink with me, its reflection and mine in the wine cup, just the three of us; then I sigh for the moon cannot drink,
and my shadow goes emptily along with me never saying a word; with no other friends here, I can but use these two for company; in the time of happiness, I too must be happy with all around me; I sit and sing and it is as if the moon
accompanies me; then if I dance, it is my shadow that dances along with me; while still not drunk, I am glad to make the moon and my shadow into friends, but then when I have drunk too much, we all part; yet these are
friends I can always count on these who have no emotion whatsoever; I hope that one day we three will meet again, deep in the Milky Way.
Through the indecisive branches went a girl who was life. Through the indecisive branches. She reflected daylight, with a tiny mirror, which was the splendour, of her unclouded forehead. Through the indecisive branches. In the dark of night, lost, she wandered, weeping the dew, of this imprisoned time. Through the indecisive branches.
Song
The girl with the lovely face, goes, gathering olives. The wind, that towering lover, takes her by the waist. Four riders go by on Andalusian ponies, in azure and emerald suits, in long cloaks of shadow. ‘Come to Cordoba, sweetheart!’ The girl does not listen. Three young bullfighters go by, slim-waisted in suits of orange, with swords of antique silver. ‘Come to Sevilla, sweetheart!’ The girl does not listen. When the twilight purples, with the daylight’s dying, a young man goes by, holding roses, and myrtle of moonlight. ‘Come to Granada, my sweetheart!’ But the girl does not listen. The girl, with the lovely face, goes on gathering olives, while the wind’s grey arms go circling her waist.
Day and night I cannot keep you out of my thoughts; In the darkness, on an empty bed, the longing deepens. I dream of us joining hands, exchanging words of love, But then the dawn bell shatters my reverie and rends my heart. Women, lovely flowers that bloom and quickly fade; Flowery faces, in full flush, lovely as dreams. When flowers burst open they grow heavy with passion But once they fall, no one speaks of them again. Even if I were a god or a Buddha you’d be on my mind. I sit beneath the lamp, a skinny monk chanting love songs. The fierce autumn wind nearly bowls me over And my heart is choked with thick clouds. The wise heathens have no knowledge; They just keep their mind continually set on the Way. There are no big–shot Buddhas in nature And ten thousand sutras are distilled in a single song. I’d like to Offer something To help you But in the Zen School We don’t have a single thing! A sex-loving monk, you object! Hot-blooded and passionate, totally aroused. Remember, though, that lust can consume all passion, Transmuting base metal into pure gold. Coming alone, Departing alone, Both are delusion: Let me teach you how Not to come, not to go! Of all things There is nothing More congratulatory Than a weather-beaten Old skull! Typhoons and floods make everyone suffer, And tonight there will be no singing and dancing. The Dharma flourishes and decays, ages come and go: So right yet so sad—the bright moon sets behind the Western Pavilion. Bliss and sorrow, love and hate, light and shadow, hot and cold, joy and anger, self and other. The enjoyment of poetic beauty may well lead to hell. But look what we find strewn all along our Path: Plum blossoms and peach flowers!
From “Love Letters Sent by the Wind,” the poetry of Ikkyu translated and introduced by John Stevens. Buddhadharma: The Practitioner’s Quarterly, Winter 2004.
'Perspective betrays with its dichotomy: train tracks always meet, not here, but only in the impossible mind's eye; horizons beat a retreat as we embark on sophist seas to overtake that mark where wave pretends to drench real sky.'
'Well then, if we agree, it is not odd that one man's devil is another's god or that the solar spectrum is a multitude of shaded grays; suspense on the quicksands of ambivalence is our life's whole nemesis.
So we could rave on, darling, you and I, until the stars tick out a lullaby about each cosmic pro and con; nothing changes, for all the blazing of our drastic jargon, but clock hands that move implacably from twelve to one.
We raise our arguments like sitting ducks to knock them down with logic or with luck and contradict ourselves for fun; the waitress holds our coats and we put on the raw wind like a scarf; love is a faun who insists his playmates run.
Now you, my intellectual leprechaun, would have me swallow the entire sun like an enormous oyster, down the ocean in one gulp: you say a mark of comet hara-kiri through the dark should inflame the sleeping town.
So kiss: the drunks upon the curb and dames in dubious doorways forget their monday names, caper with candles in their heads; the leaves applaud, and santa claus flies in scattering candy from a zeppelin, playing his prodigal charades.
The moon leans down to took; the tilting fish in the rare river wink and laugh; we lavish blessings right and left and cry hello, and then hello again in deaf churchyard ears until the starlit stiff graves all carol in reply.
Now kiss again: till our strict father leans to call for curtain on our thousand scenes; brazen actors mock at him, multiply pink harlequins and sing in gay ventriloquy from wing to wing while footlights flare and houselights dim.
Tell now, we taunq where black or white begins and separate the flutes from violins: the algebra of absolutes explodes in a kaleidoscope of shapes that jar, while each polemic jackanapes joins his enemies' recruits.
The paradox is that 'the play's the thing': though prima donna pouts and critic stings, there burns throughout the line of words, the cultivated act, a fierce brief fusion which dreamers call real, and realists, illusion: an insight like the flight of birds:
Arrows that lacerate the sky, while knowing the secret of their ecstasy's in going; some day, moving, one will drop, and, dropping, die, to trace a wound that heals only to reopen as flesh congeals: cycling phoenix never stops.
So we shall walk barefoot on walnut shells of withered worlds, and stamp out puny hells and heavens till the spirits squeak surrender: to build our bed as high as jack's bold beanstalk; lie and love till sharp scythe hacks away our rationed days and weeks.
Then jet the blue tent topple, stars rain down, and god or void appall us till we drown in our own tears: today we start to pay the piper with each breath, yet love knows not of death nor calculus above the simple sum of heart plus heart.